Hi friends, happy Friday! I hope you all had a great week and are looking forward to a great weekend, whether it'll be spent relaxing or full of fun activities. I have to be honest, this week was a bit of a struggle for me. I'm currently in the middle of what I like to refer to as a "quarter-life crisis", which means I'm freaking out about finding a full time job, moving out, or potentially starting grad school every waking moment of every single day. It's exhausting, it's stressful, and it's 100% overwhelming. But, as I'm beginning to learn, it's ok.
I'm sure we all occasionally fall into the toxic habit of wanting everything, immediately, right now, exactly the way we want it. That's normal, and no one can blame you for wanting your dreams to come true as soon as possible, but that's not the way the world works, unfortunately.
As I mentioned in last Friday's post, I recently started a bible study with my friends from work. We're reading Missing Pieces by Jennifer Rothschild together, and it's been such an eye opener for me these past few days. Rather than breaking down and crying about how frustrating the real world is like I usually do, I've started to pray about it instead and put my trust in God that everything will work out. Instead of complaining and feeling sorry for myself and envying others for their successes, I've made a conscious effort to be thankful for all that I do have.
It's really hard to not compare ourselves to others, especially when we're part of a culture that shares so much with one another with all the different types of social media out there. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's logged onto Facebook only to feel like a complete loser afterwards because everyone else's life looks so amazing and full and successful compared to mine. That feeling really sucks, but I made a startling realization the other day that totally blew my mind. God isn't comparing me to anyone. He doesn't care that I still have a part time job or that I don't make enough money to move out. He doesn't care about how many blog followers I have, or that my pictures aren't as professional as I'd like them to be.
I can only see what's directly in front of me, but He sees the overwhelmingly big picture. The entire span of my life is crystal clear to Him, and it's such a relief to just surrender my fears and anxieties and channel all of that toxic energy into beautiful, pure, and reassuring faith.